Has God ever ask you to let go of something that really matters to you?  If we really love him, he wants to know how much that really means to us.  Like Abrams offering of his son in Genesis, he doesn't always take the things that mean everything to you, but he does want to be number one in our lives.  So what is God asking you to give up?  Some people will make a joke of this and say something like eating pizza or their favorite beverage, but that's to simple.  What God wants you to offer is the one thing in your life that has the potential to take his place... That could be your job, if money is what you are serving, or your best friend if you are spending more of your time with them.  For me it's the potential of a relationship, to be so in love with someone that they are on my heart and mind day and night.  Asked if this really would stand in the way of how God wants to use me in the future, I would have to surrender the relationship even if that meant I would never have someone in my life.  God is my future and my all.  In him I have hope, without him I have nothing.  And I don't want to live in a world where I become the center.  It's not about what makes me happy, but what glorifies God.  He assures me that he is in Control of all the craziness that is in my world right now.  And I know that what glorifies God will bring me happiness, even if it isn't in the form that I think I want.

So I have a prayer of peace for myself and for you... May God be glorified in every thing we do, and may we find patience to wait for his love in our lives.  Amen

So last night I had a dream...

I was walking downhill carrying a large bag of whole grain bread, I began to notice the cars and trucks around me were crashed like a really bad wreck.  Other people were there and they were carrying bread also. As we traveled down the highway some of the people began to run.  I noticed that they had gotten in a very long line at a brick building (but that now none of them had their bread). Two very large women came towards me, I felt that I was going to be attacked for the bread, and when they grabbed it it fell out of the bag all over the street.  They just began to walk away to get back into the line.  I said to them, " See your greediness got you what we all deserve, Nothing" . "We are so greedy, we think only about ourselves and not others.  We are so blessed by God.  For we truly deserve Nothing, but he pours out his mercy and grace on us everyday".  

Yesterday I was struck by just how overwhelming God's infinite love is for me.  I truly can not fathom why he would love me so much that he would send a part of himself to suffer in this world and die so that I could have the chance to know him.  I am truly blessed...

Just popped in to let everyone know that things are just grand with me... and life has a way of turning your world around .